I've been sore lately.But right now,I'm just soo Pissed,But i'm Sad at the same time.I feel like crying.I'm too late

Today,Yesreday and the Day before,I've been working at a Chruch festival,To make money.I've been doing it every year for about....Maybe 4 or 5 years now...

I thought Kaitlyn was working,But she went to her Aunt's,So i insently thought i was going to be alone on this one.I got there and i saw my Old friend,Jimmy (Kaitlyn,It's not Jimmy the fat one).I havn't seen him for about a few years,since my Aunt's Daughter's birthday.That was about when i was atleast 6.WE used to like Pokemon,So we played in the backyard for hours.We did that once in awhile.

I was soo happy to see him.He looks so much cuter now.He likes Milatary stuff now,And he's so funny too.When i was 6 and played with him,I insently became in love with him.He was just so funny.And even tough i havn't seen him for awhile,I've still had my feelings towards him...

I worked at the Ring toss game and he worked next to me at the Coin Toss.He was sooo funny.I loved talking to him and it was so fun to talk to him.I did this for 2 days.He made me so happy.

Yesterday,He offered a Snowcone to me,But i was like "No,no,I'm fine".But he still wanted to give me one,Since i was soooo tired by the end of the day. >.< I still said no and then left me be.I feel bad when people sometimes do things for me when i don't need them to.

Mom told me that he could like me.I started to blush.I was soo happy to see him again,And i wanted to tell him my Feelings.Even at a young age,I really Love him.He was just so different from others.I just couldn't stand it.Mom and DAd caught on so fast >///<

So,Today,WE started off as usaual,But it started to rain.We waited about a Hour before we had to clean up early.

He helped out,And i did too.But i really need to ask him something.So before he helped,I asked if he had a Myspace,He said no.

So i tried to ask him if he was going to work there next year,Cause that was the only time i might have seen him again.I was so crushed when he said no.He is going to Virginia next year to check out Miltary stuff.He's too young to go in yet,But i'm sure he wants to go.He wore the same Army outfit for the past 3 days >.>;

And i know he might not come back for awhile because he doesn't live around here.

I was so Hurt at that momment,That i couldn't see anything.I couldn't hear any Voice around me.I thought i was going to start crying.Every time my Mom asked what was wrong,I turned away and said nothing.I was hiding back tears.And even if i think about him now,I feel like i wanna cry.

I never felt this way about anyone before. EVER .And this is someone i havn't seen in years and almost forgot about.

But i remebered that i should never forget about him.I said to always treasure this momment,and that i'll never say Good-bye,Cause Good-bye is forever.And i know that will never happen with me and him.

My last and final chance now is to Call my aunt and find his phone number,So atleast i could talk to him or Ask if he'll visit once in awhile.But he lives pretty far away,So i dought i might see him.

I feel so Hurt and Awful right now.I couldn't even say "see you later" in person because he was helping the others out.

I might never find another guy like him.

I told his younger brother this: "Listen,Tell your brother that i said Bye and that i'll see him another time,Okay?" And he did.But i don't Think that Jimmy even knows my name.....

This is one of the most horrible thing that's ever happened to me.And i hate that i was having 2 good days but other than this,It was horrible.I just wanna see him again.I wanna tell him how i feel.I can't stand it.

I know this won't be the Worst thing that happened to me yet,And who knows what will happen next,But i will remeber him.I will never forget about him.

Funny how goods days can turn into Bad,Just like that....

He's a crush i'll never forget.I'll see him soon,I know it.I'll always have him in my heart.He's my Secound crush i have.

I like him,Alot.I can't say 'Love' until he feels the same about me.But i'm sure i'll tell him my feelings someother time....

Right now,I'll worry about my crush that lives close to me.I'll call him soon,When i feel better.I'll try to talk to him again.Just sometime when i don't feel hurt or as Shitty as i do now.

I'll remeber Jimmy...always

For now,I am just going to take a break.My heart hurts too much right now...I might not be on for awhile,I just need sometime to heal....